Dear Chloe and Lola

[pascal_curious]

 

 

Dear Chloe and Lola,

 

I am a man of few words. Generally the words I use are quite big, like Somatocrystalization and Phagotitration. Writing this will not come easy to me, but I will do my best.

 

I know that you both are too young to understand any of this, but it my hope that your mother will share this with you when you are old enough. It is important that you know that you are never far from my thoughts and always in my heart.

 

I am your father, and I am a fool. I abandoned you and your mother when you needed me most. I am ashamed that it has taken me this long to realize exactly how much damage I have done, and exactly how much I have lost. In time, I hope that you will be able to forgive me.

 

I want to tell you about my family because they are your family too, and it is because of them that I have seen the magnitude of my errors. I am married to a very wonderful woman named Kitty. She is very smart, very beautiful, and a wonderful mother to our two children, Jenny and Pascal. Jenny is two years old. She is a very pretty little girl. She looks very much like her mother. She is also very smart. She is already learning to read. Pascal is just a baby. He is only four months old, but Kitty says he is going to look just like me. I love them all very much and I hope that one day you will all be great friends.

 

 It is because of Jenny and Pascal that I am now writing to you. I was very frightened and confused when the two of you were born. I was very angry because of something unpleasant that had happened to me. (Your mother will have to explain that to you when you are a little older.) I was hurt was badly, and when you were born I saw you as a reminder of the bad thing that had happened to me.    I was too busy wallowing in my own misery to see what a gift I had been given in you. It hurt me so much to look at you every day and be reminded of the pain I had been put through. That is why I was not able to be a father to you. I was being very selfish and shortsighted. It was not until Jenny and Pascal were born that I was able to understand what a precious gift you were. . I am so grateful that your mother has taken such good care of you. 

 

Men and women get married all the time, and go on to become mommies and daddies. It is a special thing when a child is born to a man and a woman, but it is not at all unusual. The way you came into my life was rare, perhaps even unheard of. That makes the two of you even more special. I never understood the kind of love a man could have for his children until Jenny and Pascal were born. It is unlike any other kid of love. When I saw the pain that Kitty went through to give birth to our two children, I realized that I had been petty and childish. Kitty felt a lot of pain when they were born, but it didn’t cause her to resent them or to be reminded of the pain she had been through. She loved them more than anyone else in the world. When I realized that my pain could not have been any worse than the pain she endured, I felt ashamed. I have very much regretted my actions since. It is a hard thing to admit, but I feel my heart breaking every time I think of you and all the time we have lost; time that I should have been a father to you. I hope I can make up for that lost time.

 

I don’t quite know where to start making all of this up to you and your mother. I know I have caused all of you a lot of pain. I cannot take the pain away, but I can do my best to keep it from happening again. All I can offer right now is my love and my apologies. (I have also enclosed a little something that I hope your mother can use to help care for you. It is only a small start, but there will be much more to follow. You deserve the best of everything the world has to offer.) I want a second chance to be your father and have you as part of my family. I would never dream of taking you away from your mother, I just want to be a part of your lives.

 

I love you both very much and I hope that we can be together as a family again soon.

 

Your Father,

 

Glarn Curious

 

 

Comments

[iliveforsleep.livejournal.com]

This made me all teary eyed :-(

I really enjoyed this and your New Alpha Male chapter.